Sometimes You Will Never Know the True Value of a Moment Until It Becomes a Memory.

January 11th, 2016

“Can we go there?” my son asked as we drove past the entrance to Deanna Rose “Holiday Lights on Farmstead Lane” lights display. We live near there, and we’ve driven through the display every year since the he was born.

I surveyed the line of people waiting to get in. It extended well beyond the boundaries of the park, Cars continued to enter the line, settling into a pace of about 5 miles per hour.

“Uh, no way,” I said. “We’ll come back. Those people are going to be in line for hours.”

I shook my head in disbelief, wondering what would make people decide to wait in that line. What percentage of families would make it to the destination — probably hours from the time they entered the line — still in good spirits?

And I realized, these days, we are absolutely desperate for a moment. No, I take that back, we’re looking for a MOMENT. An experience in all caps. An iconic memory, a tick on the time line. We’re looking for something bigger than our regular old day-to-day happenings.

That thought has lingered with me over the last few weeks — that this concept of a bigger-than-life moment is something we crave. We’ll go to great lengths, orchestrate scripted events, encrust our homes with decorations to the hilt, wait in line for hours — all in the hopes of experiencing something … else.

What else could draw 800,000 people into downtown Kansas City to stand in the general vicinity of a parade? Why else would we work into the wee morning hours to make sure our holidays looked “oh so” perfect?

What constitutes a MOMENT? Is it emotions? A sense of awe? A feeling of togetherness? And must it accompany an occasion?

I looked back over my efforts to create epic moments with my family. I cooked and cleaned and fretted, intent on my preparations culminating in a pinnacle moment of closeness and cheer. Which ultimately made me anxious that perhaps it wouldn’t go just right. And grumpy when my efforts fell short. And ultimately wondering if my efforts were worthwhile, and if, perhaps, I might have been just as well off settling for “nice” rather than aiming for “spectacular.”

My son wanted me to come see his latest Minecraft creation.

“I’m busy right now,” I told him. “Show me later.”

He says “Help me daddy…with this level” of Lego Star Wars on The Wii.

“We’ll do that later,” I said. “I need to finish decorating.”

When all was said and done, the yard looked great, the table was beautiful, the meal delicious. We gathered around and ate, music in the background, lights twinkling. We ate, then he fled the table to play, no more impressed with our efforts than if we would have thrown fast food on the table.

All I could think of were the little moments I’ve lost in my never-ending quest for efficiency, for productivity and for creating. What opportunities are lost? Conversations and giggles, engagement and snuggles?

Maybe we should have turned into the line for the lights that night. Of course we returned on a weeknight when we could zoom in and zoom out, oohing and awing with efficiency. But maybe the true moments would have taken place in the waiting: the conversation, the leisurely togetherness.

This New Year, I wish you a year of moments created by happenstance, of memories that are not made, but experienced. I wish you many invitations into other people’s mini moments, and the leisure to accept those invitations. I HOPE YOU TAKE A MOMENT AND MAKE A MEMORY. I wish you a very merry New Year.

Nearly 5 years of a wonderful adoption

December 17th, 2015

We have a wonderful son from a wonderful adoption. If I were a writer and blogger, I would say more. I have the best son and the best wife and we are moving right along. Live life one day at a time and let the ones you love know it. Love you both.
Are you reading this? Let me know. CZ.

Here’s the new to help us find a child.

July 23rd, 2009

Thanks for spreading the word in our hopes of finding a newborn for adoption. Please let us know if you know of a child that is available for adoption. You can also add comments to our blog. We have lots of friends working for us in our mission and we appreciate all of you! ~Chris